Having a good birthday that's turning us homeless...

Well, I have had a birthday like no other. It has been good and bad. Not sure if that makes sense but I will explain.

You see, I woke up running late for work and that had me thinking that it may not be a good day but I was trying hard to be optimistic. I had my gas light come on on the way to the sitters...I thought this isn't good b/c I am already late and I don't have time to stop...it will have to be enough to get me to work. I made it to work without being late or running out of gas. That made me happy...

I walked in the door to work and had about 5 birthday wishes all at once. Well, I consider myself a morning person but that was a lot of "Happy Birthday's" for 8am. It was nice that everyone remembered b/c my DH didn't even say anything when I left this morning...he was still half asleep so I will let him slide. He did call me around 10am and sang happy birthday to me. That was sweet.

Well, my boss' got me a potted mum and a cake...we all ate cake at 10am. WOW...talk about a rush of sugar! The cake was chocolate with cream cheese frosting...it was good but really sweet.
After we ate cake, I heard back from my DH about the closing. Remember, we were supposed to close this past Tues but it got moved to next Tues.? Well, let's just say that the underwriters are still not happy with the inspection reports for some dumb reason and we cannot close this coming Tues...not making it a good birthday. In fact, I have been depressed most of the afternoon and night. I am mad, sad, angry, hurt and upset all around. I just can't believe that they won't accept the state certified inspections...ummm HELLO, that's what you use people. I think the underwriter is not good at her job or something but this story gets worse.

My DH and KeKe got me a dress, some sandals and perfume. It was really sweet of them. I love it all. I love both of them very much.

I am mad and angry and upset because I am scared we will be homeless. We gave our 30 day notice on June 15th and so that means we have to be out of here by next weekend...b/c we have to have the place cleaned before we turn the keys back to the landlord. Well, if we don't close next week, not only will we be homeless but we will be losing $1,000.00 b/c HUD was going to give us that amount back if we closed within 30 days of them signing the contract. This means we will be suing someone. It does not look good right now. I am also sad and hurt b/c I thought that hope and faith was on our side but right now it does not look that way. I need our new home. My daughter needs to be able to sleep in her own bed not in our minivan. I am so scared we will have no where to live next week. I can only pray at this point that God will help us by next week. I have let this get to me sooooo much that I can't sleep or eat. I feel constantly sick to my stomach and I just want to cry myself to sleep forever. I pray God will help us through this. I pray he will provide the answers before my daughter has no bed to sleep in. I pray that he will keep us from being homeless. I pray he loves me and my family and can help us.