Happy July 4th!!!

I hope everyone has had a happy and safe July 4th holiday. I certainly did!

After having such a stressful week and being fearful of losing a place to sleep at night, and not eating or sleeping much, and then sleeping most of the day yesterday, I am feeling better. Not sure why but I hope it is the Lord working on helping me. I concluded that there is really nothing I can do about our problems and I will just have to see how the week goes. It may go good or it could fall apart. I will have to take it one day at a time.

Last night we actually went out to a movie and dinner with some friends we haven't seen in a long time. It was really nice to catch up with them and get out of the house to not think about my problems. It opened my eyes! I feel like I can manage better if I take it day by day. I cannot think about the possibility of things going bad right now. It could bring my depression back and that frightens me a lot.

Today, I washed dishes...yes, I have to hand wash my dishes b/c we do not have a dishwasher (not an electric one anyway). Then my step-mom called and talked about cooking out. I really had no plans up to this point of doing nothing but be a hermit and sleep the weekend away. However, I agreed to the cookout and we ended up at one of my brothers houses. It was just 7 of us but we enjoyed it and it was good to see my dad smiling so much and that made my day. You see, my dad works a lot of hours at night and so I don't get to see him much so today was really special to me...and I forgot my camera....which just sucks!

So, I hope everyone had a great holiday and hope that everyone knows that sometimes things are just out of our control and we must let the Lord help us with our problems.